Emergency C-section

Dec 14th 2009- I went to the doc early that morning and he asked me if that night we could induce! I was so excited, this girl was gonna be in my arms by tomorrow! I was 38 weeks and 6 days. Doctor wanted to induce because one he wasn't gonna be in town around my due date (dec 22) and I was in terrible pain (I have RA). He told me to call the hospital at 2pm to get a time to check in. I call...and they tell me they cannot admit me until I am 39 weeks so I have to wait until 12pm that night, after a lot of eye rolling and laughter we go out to dinner and call at 10pm to see if they have a bed. They say call at 11...we call...they say call at 2am...we call...they say call at 6am....we call...they say call at 10am....we call and they say to call at 12...By this point I am to angry and just want to go in and get this baby! And I know I wont be holding her today (dec 15th). Call at 12 and they ask me how soon can I be there! omg I about jump out of my skin. Run downstairs and tell my husband to GET IN THE CAR WE CAN FINALLY GOO!!!!! Get to the hospital in no time at all and get checked in. Nurses comes to get an IV in and cannot find a vein, ends up totally blowing a vein and leaves a golf ball size welt on my left wrist. Around 4pm we start the jell, I am totally closed and about 40% effaced....10pm my OBGYN comes in and checks me I am 1.5 cm! and says well its not gonna be tonight get her some food! We do more jell. 6am (dec 16th), more jell and I am not dilating at all. Doc calls and tells the nurse to let me take a much needed shower. 7:30am my OBGYN comes in the room checks me and says the baby isn't coming down lets get you on a ball and let you walk and roll, your beginning to get contractions on your own we may not need the pit. I am so excited now!.....Then he rushes in and says change in plans! "I just looked at the babies heart rate and she is not tolerating this labor, since we are in the beginning stages and she is doing so poorly I don't think she will make it through the labor, we are gonna prep for a c-section." I try to do everything I can not to bawl. Within a half and hour I am sitting on the table in the OR with a man trying to give me a spinal block, thankfully that didn't hurt very much and he joked with me the whole time. I was in such a daze I don't think I really understood what was going on, it was going too fast. Finally my husband comes in and I ask my doc when they are gonna start, he looks over the screen chuckling saying I can already see your insides. The doc says he has the baby....no cry...feels like forever and there is no cry, I am freaking out...omg, my baby!....finally a cry, so small and so precious, more cries (10:52am)! I am bawling now! I want my baby! They tell me there was a huge knot in her cord and she had meconium in the water so they need to take her to nicu to make sure she is alright....They wisk her away and I am left in a cold room without my baby, I can't hear her, I can't feel her, I feel so alone and so desolate....The roll me to recovery and seem to forget about me because my hour there turned into 3 hours...finally get rolled to my room and they tell me they can't bring me the baby because they can't keep her Ostats up above 85...I'm freaking out, what is wrong with my baby! Its 4pm and I haven't seen my baby! I crawl in a wheel chair still unable to feel my legs and demand to be taken to the nursery! They let me in, I see her hooked up to everything and wait for the nurse to give her to me....her Ostats go up to 98 in my arms and never went back down after I had her in my arms. My baby needed me! Only me....My angel was 6lbs 14oz and 19inches long. She had no health problems from the distress and did well. We had a long stay in the hospital and finally got released at 1pm on sat dec 19th 2009...I had my baby and she was perfect, she is perfect and she is my miracle.