HELP completely terrifed and alone

Ok I'm a brand new mom this is my very first baby. Sperm donar bailed as soon as i said the p word. I have no idea what im doing. And it seems as if its been one bad thing after another. I had my baby in feb he wasnt due til may i was on hospital bed rest from the beginning of january til march. almost everything that could go wrong did. but now i have a wonderful beautiful baby boy i still have no idea what im doing and im still completely terrified. i have a question and im wondering if someone can help. he doesnt sleep ever or atleast it seems that way sometimes and it seems like after 10 pm hes just crying i do everything i know to do diaper food bath cuddle etc etc etc is there something i need to do that im not or is he just a crier