Extra Parenting Challenges
Now here comes the big issue. I'm sick. I have multiple sclerosis, a blood disorder, major depressive disorder, anxiety and PTSD. I started off very good with the relapsing remitting form of MS but after being diagnosed 15 years ago, my doctor told me a few years ago that my disease had progressed to the secondary progressive kind.
I take nine medications in pill form now and I get an IV infusion every four weeks. The meds started off slow but as the MS has attacked my body, I've had to take more. I have problems with my bladder, nerve pain, seizures, etc.
My life was all about being a good mom before, but I have to admit that it has changed. I need to lie down almost every day due to fatigue or just not feeling well. I have a lot of doctor appointments and therapies that keep me busy. I am tired and fatigued a lot and my son is very hyper. I forget a lot of things, no concept of time and I get confused easily. Sometimes now I wonder if he would be better off living with his father, as much as it would hurt to let that happen.
I'm not sure what to do. I'm the type of person who always puts everyone else first. Is it time for me to think of my own health and well-being and actually put myself first?