Trying too hard perhaps. I need some serious help here.
OK, so I am a young mother of three and I have recenty started a new job. This job is a job I had been going after for quite some time but, I never got it. Finally, aafter moving away they ca me and asked me if I still wanted the job. I moved back home because the move I had made wasn't working out. (I Had moved to Batimore). So I have been working at the new job for safely a week now and it has its ups and downs. Everybody there is sort of ummmm GHETTO! I found this to be sooo supper surprising because it is a Wyndham Resort. I thought one could expect better, right.(wrong) This place seems to have so much going on in it that I don't even know where to start,but getting off topic now, anyways I am usually a shy person when it comes to staring out on a new job, but at this job where everyone just so happens to be veterans, I figured I should take the first innitiative. I work(during the day) side by side with this woman we will just call Kelly, She has the worse attitude you will ever encounter for somebody who works in the hospitality business. She has been her current position for 8 years, so I assume, which may be bad on my part that she is jsut tired of the job. At one point she even said she was tired of her position in the company. Which I don't blame her for at all! Anywhoo, I have been trying to be very nice to her so that maybe we could develop a friendship but, the only thing we seem to have common ground on is food and kids. So to have a change of pace I started talking about a little of my life and my relationship, and now I feel like I migt be giving her too much of my business. I am a very open person, I think I am only that wat because I assume the good in people(there goes that word againg asssumeeee) teehee. Anyways, I always look for the best in people and that may be my problem. I honestly just want to be friends with this female, she herself is a single mother, that's why I thought we would be able to get along with each other, and she seems around my age. I don't want to put myself so much out there that I seem so desperate for friendship. But, at the same time I would hate going into a job and the one person I have to work with ignores me all day. I believe in a positive enviroment can encourage a positive experience for all who encounter it. My best friend of 14 years has moved away a year ago and I don't have much or any female friends. I don't trust females or people that much, but I am trying to open up a little bit. Maybe I am trying too hard ( I have considered that), I think looking to make new friends is like dating, it is awkward if you haven't done it in a while. Any advice on the matter would be GREAT! Thanks you guys.