I'm Worried About My Worrying!
Submitted by JulesBerg
I never worried like I worry now that I have kids. I just have this heightened sense of anxiety all the time. This cannot be healthy. Am I cursed to feel this way forever? Look! I even worry that worrying too much is hazardous!
I get angry at bad drivers who make stupid maneuvers that endanger our lives. I don't sleep like I used to. My kids sleep through the night, but now I don't. When I hear about a child being abused, getting sick or dying, I cry like he's my own. Sometimes I have to go and hug my kids even if they're sleeping so I can feel better. I can't watch the same kinds of movies or television shows or even commercials that I used to, and I get angry if a story line catches me off-guard. My son is a preschooler and I'm already trying to figure out how to keep him off drugs!
I look at strangers with a lot more suspicion than I used to. I am aware of where all the registered sex offenders are within 10 miles of my house. I worry about myself and my spouse and our health. You wouldn't know it by looking at me, because I want my kids to explore and take risks, but I am really tense when I see them climb something or take off running, especially if they run out of my sight, because I'm not watching what they're doing exactly but imagining what could happen IF ...
Does anyone else feel this way or is it just me?