I'm Going to Go Crazy if I Don't Get More Sleep!
During my pregnancy, it was general uncomfortable hormone-induced insomnia like I had serious heartburn from day one and woke up quite often to pee. As my baby grew, it was just about finding the right position if I could sleep at all.
I spent many nights with my laptop attached to my hip updating my facebook page at 2 AM or later or more than once because my mind wouldn't turn OFF.
Obviously with a newborn, there is the initial excitement. All I wanted to do was stare at her. She was an amazing sight—the love of my life from the moment I heard her first cry, she was all mine. With the adrenaline, endorphins or synthetic hormones, whatever it was, I (almost) forgot that I had a dozen stitches in my not-so-private-place.
I had lost 25 pounds in the first week. My cousins joked I was the "poster child" for pregnancy because I made labor look so easy ... so much was going on I didn't care to sleep, but I regret it now because my lovely little girl is approaching her 4-month mark and she seems to sleep less and less as I'm desperate for MORE sleep than ever between nursing, diaper changes, playing, etc. etc. It never seems to end.
I guess this is simply me venting and I know now, from my own experience, that mothers have a right to complain. We must sacrifice so much. Being a mom has definitely made me stronger in so many unimaginable ways. If someone wants to challenge my unconditional love for Kylee, then I welcome it with open arms ... but can I please take a nap first?