2 Kids, Separated and 8 Weeks Pregnant

My husband and I have been having issues for a few months, but I thought it was stress from work. I let him stay out drinking with his friends after work. He started drinking more at home. I had thought for a few weeks I was pregnant. I took a HPT the Monday before New Year's. I kept telling my hubby we needed to talk and he agreed but kept putting it off. He never came home New Year's night and went straight into work the next day from wherever he had stayed the night.

I called him and told him the kids and I were going to be at my mom's house. He thought that was a good idea, too. I got to tell him that night. He acted a little pissed at first because I didn't tell him right away and I reminded him that I tried to and he had blown me off every time. He said he loves me but is not IN love with me. He said he would have to rethink things now I'm pregnant again. I told him if he doesn't love me with two kids, he won't love me with three. I can fix anything but that.

This week he had taken the kids for two nights so he could visit with them and I was so depressed I wanted to die. I talked with an old friend until my mom's phone battery died. I'm feeling a bit better. I had a sonogram and found out the baby is fine. My hubby and I are going out on a date tonight as long as he doesn't flake out again. The doctor said I was dehydrated and he could give me some antidepressants if I needed them but admitted they would be such a low dose because of the baby it might not help much. I don't think I need them now but I could have used them earlier! : ^ ) Oh well, if things end up for the worse, it wont be like I'll be the only single mom having another baby. But it is still awfully lonely at night.