In Denial About Being Pregnant
We tried 3 days and then got busy with school and work so we decided to kind of put it off, still officially want a baby, but just go with the flow and see what happens.
We started noticing that I wasn't being myself, suddenly I was a lot more moody than usual and I kept feeling stupid. I thought I might be pregnant, especially when last week I suddenly couldn't get enough sleep, but I figured I just wanted to be pregnant so I was showing symptoms of pregnancy.
I kept showing more signs of it and I planned to take a pregnancy test that Wednesday because I couldn't remember when my last period was and it usually starts on Wednesday, so if it hadn't started I would take it. Well, I talked to my mom and she told me that my period should have started a week before so the test might be accurate so I went ahead and peed on the stick.
It was positive and not a faint kind of positive where there can even be any kind of doubt. So I took another one, false positives are possible, and it was just as positive.
That night my husband and I decided to tell our parents and siblings and planned to keep it a secret besides them because it's so soon and there are so many things that can go wrong and I don't want to have to tell a bunch of people about it if something does go wrong.
Well it's been two days since then, I pee a lot, I take at least one nap a day, my boobs are sore and I'm extremely weepy and emotional, but I can't talk myself into believing I'm pregnant. I have a cold, which I attribute to how tired I am, and I keep telling myself that I'm weepy because I'm so tired. I'm afraid to make an appointment with the doctor just to find out that I'm not pregnant and worst of all my family can't keep their mouths shut so every person I know, friend and acquaintance knows I'm pregnant.
I keep having nightmares that I have a miscarriage and have to tell the world about it while trying to come to terms with it myself and during the day I'm terrified that I just had a box of faulty pregnancy tests and so I'm just being crazy and trying to act the part of a pregnant lady.
My husband thinks that my fears are unfounded and has no doubt that I'm pregnant but I can't fathom a world where I have a little baby in me. It doesn't seem possible after only having unprotected sex 3 times.
I was doing the math today and my last period started January 1 so the pregnancy test shouldn't have even worked.
I'm freaking myself out and if there is some little guy in me I know the stress isn't good for him/her. Any tips or advice would be helpful. I'm driving myself crazy.
PS: I'm 22 years old and my husband and I are the oldest on every possible side of family so there's nobody I can talk to who has been through this recently enough to remember, which also makes them so excited for the baby that I'm terrified to get their hopes up.