The Waiting (and Waiting and Waiting) Game
Submitted by ThisBabyMomma
This day has been awful and I need to get everything off my chest. Here goes ... I am 4 days shy of my due date in my first pregnancy. Couldn't be happier that it's drawing to a close and so excited to FINALLY meet my baby boy ... if he'd ever decide to come out!
I had my weekly doctor's appointment today, like I've had for the past 5 weeks, and guess what: Still NOTHING. I'm not dilated, not even one measly centimeter. Not a single one. Haven't had any real contractions, false labor, nada.
I'm one of those people who researches everything on the Internet (which I have done throughout this entire pregnancy, mind you) and I guess I had all these expectations built up from reading about other women's experiences about how MY labor would begin early or I would at least be dilated a centimeter for a while or something, ANYTHING would be going on by now.
To add insult to injury, as I was just going back for my appointment I saw my friend leaving her appointment. She's due 3 days before me. She was telling me how she was going in to be induced at 5:30 the next morning, making me totally jealous. Well, then the nurse decides to say the wrong thing to me: "Maybe you'll be having yours tomorrow, too!" Totally giving me false hope. She repeated this or something similar a couple more times before my midwife came in, so of course I was thinking that maybe even if I had no change to my cervix, she would decide hey, maybe she needs to go ahead and induce me tomorrow, too! Of course that didn't happen. I broke down crying as soon as I got outside the doors.
I know he has to come out EVENTUALLY, but I really expected more to be going on by now. Ughhh ... I'm just frustrated.
I had my weekly doctor's appointment today, like I've had for the past 5 weeks, and guess what: Still NOTHING. I'm not dilated, not even one measly centimeter. Not a single one. Haven't had any real contractions, false labor, nada.
I'm one of those people who researches everything on the Internet (which I have done throughout this entire pregnancy, mind you) and I guess I had all these expectations built up from reading about other women's experiences about how MY labor would begin early or I would at least be dilated a centimeter for a while or something, ANYTHING would be going on by now.
To add insult to injury, as I was just going back for my appointment I saw my friend leaving her appointment. She's due 3 days before me. She was telling me how she was going in to be induced at 5:30 the next morning, making me totally jealous. Well, then the nurse decides to say the wrong thing to me: "Maybe you'll be having yours tomorrow, too!" Totally giving me false hope. She repeated this or something similar a couple more times before my midwife came in, so of course I was thinking that maybe even if I had no change to my cervix, she would decide hey, maybe she needs to go ahead and induce me tomorrow, too! Of course that didn't happen. I broke down crying as soon as I got outside the doors.
I know he has to come out EVENTUALLY, but I really expected more to be going on by now. Ughhh ... I'm just frustrated.
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