Pregnancy Fetal Development: Twin to Twin Transfusion

hi im jade i have 2 things i would like to ask i was just wondering if there is any one else that has identical twins i have and me and my partner has been through so much with them during pregnancy the doctors told me they were twin to twin transfusion (TTTT) they said because of this i would have to abort the smaller one to give the bigger one a better chance of living thank god i didn't as they are both here now but i went in to early labor at 26 weeks 2 days i had them by c section they were in high dependency for 4 month were we had so much go on there the smaller one wasn't breathing by her self and then had to have an operation on her heart to close the duct the bigger one had a bleed on the brain and wouldn't breath by herself also had 3 operations on her bowels she kept getting holes in them so the doctors give her a storme ( put her bowels on the out side) they are ok at the min but still have a problem creep up here and there i would love to talk to some one that has been through the same thing also i just found out i'm pregnant again but my partner doesn't want it he says we have to much on with the twins i can see were he is coming from but i want it please someone give me some advice thanks xx