The Things Pregnant Moms Go Through

I don't think it's humanly possible for anyone to understand what you go through when you're pregnant. Unless you've been there for yourself, no story, no book or watching the whole thing can do it any justice.

I would always hear stories about how women were when they were pregnant but I always said "that'll never be me" or "I won't do that." Everyone wants to blame everything on the hormones. "She's just being emotional," "Stop blowing things out of proportion" is all you seem to hear from the people around you. They don't seem to understand that it's not just a matter or being over-emotional, over-hormoned and wired for sound all the time. I'm not saying that the hormones don't play a small part in being pregnant and your responses to things but how you feel is how you feel and a hormone isn't going to change that. If you love a song, a hormone isn't going to make you hate it ... hearing it a hundred times in one day is going to make you hate it.

I just wish everyone could be pregnant for a day. Maybe then they would understand what you go through. You start getting your maternal instinct and when it starts, it starts in overdrive. You want to protect everyone you love from everything. You become a mother bear and you will gut any one for any reason with your bare hands. Not only that but you get paranoid about everything. You drive 10 MPH, wash you hands after touching everything because you don't want to get sick and when you do get sick, you stay that way because you're afraid anything you take will hurt the baby.

Shall we mention how everyone around nags and criticises every five minutes about everything you do when you're pregnant? Aparently you're supposed to get plenty of rest but don't dare sleep all day if you didn't sleep the night before, you need to eat more but don't eat that, don't smoke, don't drink, no drugs, sit down, don't walk that far, don't reach for that, put that down it's too heavy ... and the list goes on. After hearing everyone yell at you about all this, all you want to do is eat a Double Quater Pounder with cheese and a half gallon of ice cream, reach for the 20-pound bottle of alcohol, have a drink, a joint and a cigarette while taking a long walk in the cold woods at 3 AM. I would kill to do that right about now.

The whole time all this is going on, all you're worried about is the little critter growing inside you. You hear his heartbeat, you feel him kick and move and all you can think about is seeing his face. You have to deal with all the environmental factors and all you want to do is crawl in a hole with your baby and hide. You worry about being a good parent, about his health, about people being anywhere near him. Not to mention worrying about how you're going to aford to give him everything he needs to survive in the horrible world. This goes 2 fold when you don't really have a home of your own and you're 6 months along. You have no place for yourself much less a child. You have no furniture for him, no room to put it in and no money to get either. Every parent wants the best for thier child and would sell thier soul to make sure it happens that way but what are you supposed to do when there's no one to sell your soul to?

People don't realize that these are just a few of the things that you go through, along with the doctors appointments that need to be kept, the health problems you already have that have been escalated due to the pregnancy, the aches and pains and the emotional response to what's happening to your body. No one thinks about that, they all think "aw, look, she's pregnant and glowing" when you're walking around with your huge stomach hanging out. They don't realize that inside you're crying you're eyes out thinking "I'm fat and hideous. 6 or 7 months ago I was gorgeous, I'll never look like that again. My body will never be the same." Meanwhile, your feet are swelling, your back feels like it's broken, your hips hurt along with your knees and ankles and you're thinking so much about everything that you get a migrane that lasts for 4 months. Lets not forget the occasional kicks to the bladder which makes you have to pee 10 times an hour instead of 6.

But these are just some of the things a pregnant woman goes trough, they're the things you don't read about and most women don't even talk about. They just deal with it because what choice so you have? Whining about it isn't going to change anything, it isn't going to make anyone understand, it's just going to make you look like you're crazy, which you feel like you are. Instead, we just keep on truckin like nothing's wrong and attempt to keep our heads on straight and make people think we're sane ... which we're not. If we were, we wouldn't be pregnant.