I Need Support Coping with Postpartum Depression!
Ever since I was little I knew I wanted to have kids. I've ALWAYS looked so forward to being a mommy. My husband and I were saying from the beginning, "We'll have 2, maybe 3, but definitely at least 2." Now I don't know. I had severe postpartum depression. I wouldn't eat for days, I never watched t.v., I hardly got on the computer, and I just felt generally miserable. I felt like I was having a 24 hour panic/anxiety attack. I had feelings of regret for having her. I started to realize it while I was still at the hospital! I didn't feel that overwhelming love and excitement and I didn't understand why. I thought, "Well I haven't gotten much sleep and I'm just really tired," but when we got home I started to feel like I couldn't do it.
It was exhausting. I was still recovering, and we got home on Wednesday. My husband had to go back to work THURSDAY! (Yeah a real understanding boss that I'd love to give a piece of my mind...) Anyways...i talked to other people I knew that had kids and no one understood what I was talking about. They apparently are overwhelmingly happy 24 hours a day every day. I have felt like I have NO ONE to talk to about this who understands.
If there are any young moms, or just any moms that have gone through depression or are going through it now, I'd love to talk to you!