So d-day is getting very close. I will be 33 wks tomorrow. My daughter Natalie who is going to be 3 soon, seems to be excited about the baby in theory, but I don'[t know how much she really "gets it". I know that she will adore her little sister once she gets over the initial jealousy and we all settle into a routine.
However, I have been having this impending feeling lately of extreme guilt about bringing another child into her world and like I am taking something away from her. I adore my little girl more than I could ever express and she is such a sweet smart and beautiful little girl. Like all only children, she has been the centre of our world for the lat almost 3 years. I just really worry that she is going to lose some of this bond with me and end up feeling neglected. I am going to do absolutely everything I can to make sure this does not happen, but I know that I can only be stretched so far. Sometimes it really upsets me. Yesterday we were coloring together and she looked up at me with those big brown eyes and said I love you mommy. Well that set me right off and I started to cry...
I feel like she knows that something is happening too and can sense that a big change is coming. Lately she has been waking up every night and crawling into bed with me which she has never done. And she has been so clingy with me. Do you think she can sense something is coming?
For the next 6 or 7 weeks I am going to do as much with her as possible and really cherish the last moments we have together as a single child.
HAve any of you other mommies of 2 or more felt this way?