FEATURED: scared,young and feel so alone right now
I'm 12 weeks pregnant (still very early I know) and im already showing BIG TIME.
I'm only 19 years old,and have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for all of about five months, but i have known him forever. Everything was great i had a job a really good job he had a job i have lived on my own sense i was 18 and used to doing everything on my own. very independent until about 3 months ago the worst thing happened i lost my job ;( i got laid off and then got denied unemployment and been had a very hard time finding a job then a month later my boyfriend quit his job for a good reason but it wasnt the best time. I was very depressed for eveyrthing going on i was drinking and partying alot being a stupid teenager and found out i was prego on dec 9 i had no signs i was prego untill that day. I had just got home from the store and was putting things away when all of a sudden my nipples were burning really bad! i called my mom immediately becuase i know my body and tht was not normal and told her about you told me thts what her's did when she was prego with me so i left and got a test and thts when i found out i was pregnant i felt like an idiot :/ becuase ive been drinking i smoked cigs and i was just so mad at myself . i quit everything once i found out & is now taking care of me and my baby its just scary and in the back of my mind is my baby gonna be okay. I have only been to one baby appointment and our second one is this monday we get to hear the baby's heartbeat(: i have been honest with my doctors about my drinking to and they havent said to much i think once i ge an ultrasound and see my baby is okay ill feel much better. I also just lost my appartment and tried living with my mom but couldnt because her and her boyfriend just wanna drink and fight all the time not a good place for me or my baby. so i am now living with my boyfriend and his family but im just so stressed out with eveything going on i just need people to talk to who can give me advice and who knows what im going threw im just scared and i have support from my boyfriend but he is not a girl so he doesnt not completely understand :(