Pregnant Again After a Loss
My husband and I had to terminate a much-wanted pregnancy earlier this year due to a chromosomal abnormality that would have caused our child to die in utero or shortly thereafter. I had a D&C, which wasn't too bad physically, but the emotional scars are still very painful.
Then we got pregnant again on our first try after the recommended waiting period of three months. We were quite surprised; in the past, it had taken us longer. But instead of being thrilled, I'm terrified. I am overcome with fear and have a very strong feeling that something will go wrong again.
I know these feelings
and thoughts are normal, but I am not sure how to focus on the 98 percent chance that everything will be OK. I can't seem to get excited about this pregnancy. I am filled with negativity, which is unusual for me. The fact that I feel the same way that I did during my previous pregnancy (I didn't have any symptoms) just adds to the sense that something is definitely wrong.
I'm having a very hard time with this SPAL (subsequent pregnancy after loss).