Submitted by Mom2Karma
Six years ago my husband and I started trying to conceive. After a year of charting, testing and reading everything I could find, we still weren't pregnant. My doctor sent me to a specialist who said he had no clue why we would want to get pregnant, because I was 21 and my husband was 22. He treated us like children, and I got fed up. After a year of fertility treatments, scans, ultrasounds, shots and everything else involved in trying to produce a miracle, we went back to trying on our own.
I was obsessed with trying for a child. Everyone around us was getting pregnant. Why couldn't I? It tore my marriage to shreds, and after three years and eight months, my husband and I separated.
We were apart for a little over a month when we decided to try again. Only this time we decided to look into adoption. I was disappointed. I had wanted to feel the joy of carrying a child. But as much as I wanted to be pregnant, I wanted to have a baby more.
Two months after reconciling with my husband I got the shock of my life: I was pregnant. There are no words to describe the feeling I had when I was told the news.
Now I have a happy, healthy 19-month old and we would like to have another. But I am scared of trying to conceive again. I know what it was like the last time. Not long ago I got a faint positive. I set up an appointment with my ob/gyn only to find out I wasn't pregnant. Now I am almost two months late for my period but I already got a negative test when I was a week late. I think my body hates me. I don't know if I should wait it out, test again or just call my doctor.
I just don't want another false positive. I have a little girl and I am happy with her, but I love children and have always wanted a big family. I guess I will buy a test and if it comes back negative I will have to call my doctor.
You see people every day who have no problem getting pregnant. But it's a real trial when you have trouble conceiving a child.